He Who Killed The Super Best Friends

Ladies and Gentlemen,

I stand before the humbled, awestruck, and confused man. What I thought was going to be a fun evening, has turned into the tear in the very fabric of space. As those of you that read other blogs of the SBF's have no doubt seen there are explanations, postmortems, and tombstones. "Why?” You may ask yourself as reading these. Evil R blames herself, Jdawg is pissed at the rest of us, UA is trying to play peacekeeper and me, and I am the reason for it all.

Why am I the reason for it all? Let’s say that Custom tells what needs to be said in the song "Morning Spank". There is a section where the song tells the story.

"Dumb enough to go there
Nothing will mend it
I don't recommend it nothing will mend it"

So what might this mean? Yours truly went there, went to a place that Evil R deems as the lowest place that I could go. She's right to feel that I betrayed her trust. She's right to feel anger at me.

To her I say this:
For seven years of my life, since the time we first met and you took me under your wing, I've always loved you and the time that we shared together. We've had our share of up's and downs. More up's than downs I feel. You've always had great trust in me and what I do. You have been there to help me, guide me, and mold me. You've always made me feel special even on those days that I don't think I am. You have always listened to me, and given me advice. You have always challenged me to be better. In a matter of moments I have ruined all that you thought I was. For that I'm sorry, but I ask you not to give up on others just because of me. I ask that you continue to strive to be a better friend then what I have. I also ask that if you blame anyone you blame me. Not JDawg, not Ultra Aries, and most especially not yourself. Place the blame firmly where it belongs. Me, the reasons for your anger, hate, and mistrust. The only thing I can hope is that someday you say "Hi" and move on. I'm not asking you to forgive me, nor am I asking to be your friend. You can treat me like gutter slime if you want, but no matter what I will always strive to earn your respect again.

I know how much you love your Sister-in-law. I know that you would like to see her happy, with a good man that loves and cares for her. I know that you are her crying shoulder, and you don't want to choose family over friends. I promise you this, just as I strive to get your respect, I will strive to make her happy. If a time comes when that is not possible then I fully expect family to come first.

Jdawg:
You have always been there for me as well. Your there for my bad days and my good. You have always given me fun things to do, Barbeques, Dinners, Family, and opportunity. For these I will ever be grateful for you. I know that some times I talk down and hurt you, and I see that in your face, and actions. No matter what though you always come back and want me to do things with you. I'm sorry that I have not done more, and been a better friend to you. I always look at you as my big brother that has a wild streak 10 miles wide. You’re a truly better man than I. I thank you for sticking with me, even when you’re going through the roughest part of your path.

So here it is ladies and gentlemen, the reason for the death of The SBF's. Joseph M. Burns. Plain and simple, I was the shy one, the one that never showed his feelings, the one that kept everything inside. I am the Kryptonite to Superman. I am the one that broke the trust of the people that gave it to me. I am the one that has not been a friend to those who have tried so hard to be mine. I am the one that has never tried to be better than I am. I am the one with the EGO and perfectionist attitude. I am the one that held all my friends down, and made them feel inadequate. To all of you here I stand, just a boy that is living in a mans world. I am Joey, I am a farce. There will be no more VMackolov. He is a way to hide the truth.

R.I.P. VMackolov 1990 - 2005
R.I.P. Super Best Friends 1994 - 2005
Disposed of by VMackolov at 5:58:00 PM